I haven't written in a while! I've wanted to but I guess I've just been busy..or lazy..who knows.
Yesterday was wedding number 3 that I've been a bridesmaid in. I swear, I'm a professional bridesmaid now ;)
Seriously though..3 of my best friends in the world are married now. And I am so SO happy for them!
Honestly, it hasn't been easy for me. Especially when Lisa got engaged and I realized that out of the "4 musketeers" or whatever the heck you'd call us, I was the only one not getting married.
I always assumed I would meet the man of my dreams in college, get swept off my feet, and be married soon after graduating. That wasn't God's plan though. And you know what? I'm glad it wasn't. I was not ready for marriage a year ago, and I'm not really sure I am now.
Point is though, my friends are so so happy. The Lord has different plans for their lives than mine, and I would not have it any other way! Justin, Tim, and Matt are 3 wonderful men. They treat my friends like princesses. Men like them are worth waiting for. I will wait, as long as it takes. I'll be single. It's ok. Sometimes I don't understand, sometimes I lack self confidence, sometimes I wonder what the heck God is doing. But it's ok! I think I've reached a point of contentment and an understanding that just because my life is different than a lot of my friends, it doesn't mean there's something wrong with me (though I'm starting to get tired of comments from various adults at all these weddings "so why aren't you married yet?! ugh..lol)
I have to learn to be content where I'm at. Make the most of every experience. And LOVE my Lord and Savior with everything that is in me. I love the verse written above. Because that's me. It's been me for almost 23 years. I want to be devoted to the Lord. If I don't know how to love Him right, then how can I love a husband? I am pursued by the God of the universe. He's all I need. He's what I'll cling to.
Then one day, God willing, that guy will come along. The man that is willing to pursue me, to fight for me. Someone different than anyone I've encountered before, someone that won't break my heart.
I know that's worth waiting for.
And in the meantime, I'll be faithful.
